Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Jud takes his first steps



How about that? At 13 months old? :) I actually haven't seen him even interested in walking until today. I saw him in the a.m. standing and he would take one step towards me. Then my friend Emily showed up to take Caroline to gymnastics and I said, hey look Jud is taking some steps and he stood and took like 3 or 4 steps to her outside!! Yahoo! Go Jud!

We didn't go to gymnastics today because Lawrence still has the fever. So weird, one of my kids has had the fever for 3 weeks now. A week at a time. Phew. If Mark and I get it each a week, that would be a grand 5 weeks total. At least his finals will be over with this weekend:)

Does anyone read this? I mean who are you out there? I still struggle to read blogs and not compare myself and either feel better about myself, or go to bed comparing myself and feeling like I'm missing out on something I should have or someone I should be. How about that for revealing the depths of my heart(not being thankful for my life) and my lack of rest in who I am. Well, full disclosure, I struggle to the core with sin. And it makes me thankful that I don't have to go to bed at night feeling yucky, because I can tell Jesus I'm sorry and that I believe that He died on the cross for these very sins. Oh the freedom.

All that said, I have plenty to repent of each day(not that I always do, pray for me)without adding to it my comparison and envy of unknown women out there in blog land. So, I think I'll stick to checking my friends blogs every now and then.

On to other news. I figured you would be tired of just pictures, so I'm giving you plenty of text here. Did I mention that we are adopting? Well, let me try that again, we are trying to get the necessary paperwork done to adopt. I'm quite discouraged this week. I think I've been working pretty hard since well, Feb. and I'm disappointed with not meeting my goals. I read somewhere that some people have all their paperwork done in 3 months, so I figured May would be a good goal. HA. I just found out that our paperwork will most likely not be done until, oh, November! If we are lucky. Phew. This time frame makes me think a lot about our current plan to return to Asia next August, which in turns creates a lot of stress:) Phew. Okay, I'm not wrapping this one up in a neat little bow. I'm just struggling to rest in God's complete control and not be anxious.

Ok. Guess that's enough. We have a little over 2 weeks before we hit the road for our 6 week journey. I'm looking forward to it. *don't remind me that I said that when I see you on the road and am tired and ready to cry because my children are out of control*

Meg. . . .oh ok, with a few pics cause I remembered I had a camera the other day!






6 comments:

Mary said...

I'm out here, Meg! And boy oh boy, have I taken a ride on that evil comparison train lately...whew! I am so looking forward to hanging out with you and the others tonight...definitely in need of some fresh grace from the mouths of dear sisters. So bummed to hear of the latest adoption news. It's so hard to read of others' experiences and set expectations about our own, and then be disappointed (can totally relate to that feeling in regard to our IMB experience). Okay, this might be the longest comment in the history of blogger. But I'm so proud of Jud! Maybe he can inspire our Care to be interested in walking again!

Jamie Butts said...

Love you!!

scs said...

so glad you've gone public on the blog with the adoption news! but ,sorry to hear you've hit a spell of discouragement. we are praying for you guys. and....love your honesty in this post! i have felt so encouraged by vulnerable, humble moms the Lord has blessed me to know and look up to as an example like you, meg! hoping that early june redezvous works out...

words and streets said...

Still out here reading, too! I hate facebook and blogs. Bit, alas, I still check some. Miss you girl. I'll try to call again this week. What is a good time? And we need to confirm when we can see each other. Gods timing on adoption? Maybe later is what He wants? Just a thought. Love you tons!!!!! And miss our talks.

therooddog said...

Takes me a while to get caught up at times but I always read & enjoy your blog. Hard to watch your kids growing up so fast... somehow I don't think that Caroline is going to be all that interested in watching the fish at the V or playing hide and see behind the curtains when she comes back.

Miss yall more than I can say.

Monica said...

Hey Megan! Congratulations on your adoption! Where are you adopting from? With what organization? We are adopting from Ethiopia with AWAA - we submitted our dossier in mid-April & I understand your pains during the paper process! We were set back 4 months which made our paper chase a total of 7 months! Bummer, but just remember God has the perfect child for your family & He will work out that paper work accordingly. Ok - sorry for being a late blog reader!